Believe
I’m trying to hold on, I swear,
to believing in love.
Dear God, I feel like an 8 year old again,
hearing the stories that Santa isn’t real
from the school yard bullies.
Standing on that cusp of a belief
between what I feel on Christmas morning
and what my mind knows of the world.
Even though I can’t stand their voices,
their jaded taunts.
Always in a group, their laughter mean.
My mind knows there is truth
in their destruction of my joy.
Is there no longer a desire to see what love can do?
Have we dumped all our resources into hate?
The flames high,
heat radiating for days.
I know how tempting a fire is in the middle of a cold night.
Red flames dancing seductively,
promising to keep the wolves at bay.
But the fire will only burn if it is constantly fed.
There is only so much a person can sacrifice to pain,
until there are no more planks left to build a life with.
Dear God, I am tired!
My armour pierced.
My reserve spent.
My fingers blistering.
My body weak from holding my children away from
the onslaught of division and wreckage.
I am tired!
My eyes closed from the sweat dripping into them.
I want to believe,
I want
to believe.
To believe…
I believe,
I do...
I have lived long enough to know
that Christmas mornings
are still filled with joy
because I am the one that wraps the presents,
fills the stockings
and places the packages under the tree,
as all my children dream.
I know of the joy they will feel come morning,
because I believe.
I believe in love,
even as I stand up on spent legs.
Poetic Form #29: Free Verse
Free verse is a form that is free from limitations of regular meter or rhythm, and
does not rhyme with fixed forms, yet still uses literary devices like metaphors,
personification, irony, and similes.