Friday, November 30, 2018

To The Woman Painting


It is 12:30 p.m. on a Thursday afternoon
I am sitting at the drive-thru of my locally owned pharmacy
    with my five year-old daughter in the back seat
        waiting for antibiotics for her strep throat

Your apartment is on the second floor
    I see you standing in the window
    You are wearing a blue sweater
        decorated with what appears to be snowflakes
    A brush with white paint in your right hand
        You step up on a ladder I can’t see
            to paint above the window
        You are wearing grey pants
You step down
    keeping the brush pointed up
        A bare light hangs behind you
I guess your age to be 50ish
    Your hair light, short and curled
You move the unseen step ladder to your left
then step up to paint in the corner
I only see your elbow, now

What is your story?
    Why are you painting a room on a Thursday afternoon?
Did you cradle children in that arm?
Are you recently divorced?
Maybe a widow?
Or did you move to this town to be close to your grandkids?
    You step down
Walk across my view
        only to return a second later
            brush held up, fresh paint on its bristles

Your elbow is the last I see of you
As the pharmacist
        instructs me on how many doses my daughter can take today
I drive away
    I only see the ceiling of your newly painted room
        as I turn onto the street
        heading home with my sick daughter
        ignorant of your story
            but hoping that today’s chapter ends well

Thursday, November 1, 2018

For My Children


Believe

Believe in handwritten letters
    In firm handshakes that state who you are
        Make eye contact
            It will reveal more truth than words

Believe that the sunset is just a transition to the dawn
    For we all have to deal with darkness
        But don’t turn on the TV
        Or fall asleep to the sound of a fan
    Open the door
Lie down on the driveway
        Notice the stars
            Feel small
            Feel connected

Believe in books

Believe that when people speak loudly against you
    Their voice is just a worn dirty band aid
        Trying to cover a wound bigger than you can see
            Their attempt to scar you is
                Just a scream filled with pain from the past

    Walk away, though

Believe in sunflowers

Believe in Sunday dinners with trips for ice cream

Believe that tomorrow is just a reflection of the way you lived your life today
    Time is the greatest liar in this world
        It promises everything like a carny
            Calling for you to try your luck at a game you can’t win
            Because tomorrow is never a guarantee
                No matter how persuasive the carny calls to you

Believe that you are enough

Believe that dreams come true
    Just not on a shooting star
        Your hands have to become dirty
        Your lungs short of breath
        Muscles will ache
        That is how dreams becomes reality

Believe that

Believe in tears

Believe in joy

Believe that I love you
    Even after I leave for the heavens
    lie down on the driveway
Notice the stars
            Feel small
            Feel connected

            Feel loved

But most importantly

Believe...